Stories about Stories

It is a well-accepted fact of the academic world that those who engage in research and study and the rigorous exploration of the world around them are prone to pretensions. We accept this as a fact of their position in the world, and the nature of what it is they do: they explore. They delve into the very fabric of life itself and attempt to extrapolate answers that will eventually trickle into our everyday lives in some unknown and likely unappreciated way. Though certainly many of this bent hope that their discoveries will change the world in some visible, meaningful way, it is my belief that few of them acknowledge what they do as having such change as a likely outcome.

This, however, does not stop endless pontificating, posturing, and down-right delusional behaviour on the part of many who would consider themselves ‘academics’ in defending what it is they do as being important, often the most important.

Before I wade into this topic, let me first declare my colours, so that you know my biases going in:  In terms of what the academy might call me, I would likely sit as both a political scientist and a historian. For reasons both personal and academic, I would likely more readily identify as a social historian, but certainly one with a particular interest in politics (among nearly everything else). Philosophically, I come from a tradition that stresses perception, subjectivity, relativity, and narrative. In terms of fancy identifiers, I would probably be characterised as a postmodernist (perhaps as a post-postmodernist), and more specifically as someone influenced by the Hermeneutic tradition.

But what all of those fancy words manage to hide is the way I actually see myself and frankly, the way I see everyone else.

I a man of stories.

As far as I am concerned, the entire world is made of stories. I think everyone is actively engaged in the project of either understanding stories already told, or creating new ones. This understanding of the world stresses the most basic definition of story, as being an account of something, real or imaginary, that is recounted to others, perhaps even to the self. When you look at the word story in that sense, then every act of exploration becomes a story. There is the obvious example of the historian who looks at the past and relays that information to the present, but the comparison need not be so facile. Chemists are story-tellers, too. Combining one compound with another, watching for a reaction, recording that, and then relaying that information; that’s a story. Physicists, studying the formation and functioning of the universe, are looking at stories – often deeply important ones. Even mathematicians, sometimes distant and separated from other disciplines and avenues of exploration are story-tellers, at least in my mind. The development of an equation, perhaps the simplest form of a story.

Think about it: one plus one equals two. If I have one thing, and then I bring in something else, and add it together, I have two things. It may sound like an abstract process, but what you are talking about is the birth of something new from two previous things. This process can be carried forward in infinitely complex ways on a nearly infinite number of activities.

Stories matter; progression matters. Everything we do in this crazy world is based on the assumption that something is going to happen. The non-presence of something is still something that we note, something that we are going to comment on. Nothingness breeds stories even still. This is the idea – the story- that I want to impart to you who might stumble into reading this. Despite the posturing we all make, the many claims to superiority that float around, we’re all fundamentally interested in the same thing: stories. If we can tell them, if we delve into the world deeply enough, then maybe we can add something powerful to the story of humanity. We can only hope that that story has a good many pages left in it.

Considerations and Configurations

I don’t write on this blog much, as I’ve grown quite attached to my Tumblr for the sort of thoughtful, internally reflective writing that I enjoy doing so much. As much as I love writing all of that, though, it’s only one part of who I am. I am also deeply interested in style, culture, and history. Deep questions, to be sure, but ones that I don’t feel mix terribly well with my sometimes jovial, sometimes morose, sometimes completely neutral reflections on life.

A thought occurred to me today: I read a lot. I read several dozen blogs, have a whole bunch of regular tweeters that I follow, and all that sort of mess of things. It dawned on me that I might be better served accumulating the collective things I am interested in and spend time writing about on Facebook here, as opposed to trying to spread them out amongst my social media and overwhelm everyone with them.

Just a thought.

Trees and Fall and Leaves and the Universe

There was something that happened today that I wanted to write about.

Now, I was locked in my apartment today for a good ten hours. I was working on a bunch of tasks I have for this volunteering position down in Seattle and I found myself struggling through getting it all done. It’s not because it’s particularly difficult work, but much like the thought I was expressing previously, I don’t find it particularly challenging. But c’est la vie. I kept working through it for most of the day, with the occasional smattering of How I Met Your Mother to break the monotony. But that’s another story.

There was a moment, though, where I left all of that behind and had a profound experience.

I’d been lying on the floor, working on some breathing exercises I’ve been learning lately in order to clear my mind. I find with too much time on the computer I get rather jumbled and have an inability to concentrate, so I try and take time to refocus myself. I was lying on the floor, calmly breathing in and out, succeeding quite handsomely in my quest to drown out the droning of my fridge and the buzzing of my thoughts.

Gradually I entered my own mental inner-sanctum and found the peace and solace I was looking for. It was only briefly that I entered it, because I’m still learning this new kind of mental discipline, but in that moment I was very much at peace with the world.

When my concentration finally broke, it took me a minute to regain my sense of self. Thoughts come rushing back to em immediately, but it always takes me a moment to find my centre. I rose slowly from where I’d been laying on the floor. I calmly strode to my sliding glass door and walked out on to my small balcony.

As I looked out into the setting sun, I covered the top of my brow with my hand and surveyed the landscape of rooves and tees. It was a veritable sea of green and pink and brown and white. It was beautiful. The feeling of the sun on my cheek and the warmth made me feel the timeless joy that only the elements can bring. I smiled in gentle acknowledgement of the moment. Slowly I turned my head from the sun and looked to my left. Quite close by my balcony, I could see a deciduous tree beginning to shed the first leaves of fall.

Almost as soon as I looked, I saw a single orange leaf fall from the tree and gradually make its way to the ground. It feels strange to say it, but I feel that I must: in that moment, I felt as though the earth was smiling at me. I felt as though, for the briefest point in time, the universe was giving me some personalised “just for me” event that I could hold on to. It’s like when someone is glad to see you and they squeeze your arm, or when a stranger smiles at you in a crowd. That connection, that moment, is just for you. It’s no one else’s. It belongs to you, and if you want it to, it can brighten your whole day, or invite you into doing something you might not have planned to.

That leaf eventually finished its descent from the tree and made its way onto the cold autumn ground. The smile was gone; the moment had ended. But I still had that feeling in my heart.

I liked today.

Ex-Hair Model

A few weeks back, I did something a little crazy: I went to a model-search. A major styling company was flying in a hair designer from Los Angeles (if their boasting is to believed, he was one of the best in the entire world), and they wanted people to be involved in his fashion show. I was really nervous to do it, but I decided that I would. When I went to the call, I didn’t even have to audition. She took one look at my hair and decided that I could go on to the final audition with the stylist.

In the succeeding weeks, I would spend a substantial amount of time talking about how excited I was about this opportunity. It would start as that, and gradually work itself into something I consider to be rather arrogant and unbecoming. An assumption that I was “bound to get in”. Like I said, unbecoming.

But the show was a real wake-up call. Only four guys showed up, and all of us were turned away. Apparently I had the right energy, but my hair simply wasn’t long enough. There was nothing they could do. I just wasn’t right for the job.

As embarrassed as I was (and will be) to tell everyone that I didn’t get the job, especially after what amounted to about two weeks of joking and (to some extent) bragging about the job, I know this was a good thing. It helps keep me humble, it reminds me that things that seem like a sure thing are not always going to turn out that way.

Strangely enough, I’d say that this event reminds me of faith, more than anything. People might be surprised to hear that, but I look at it this way: we often say that we have “faith” that things will go the way we want, or expect them to, but the reality is that that conception of faith is more than a little shallow. True faith, I think, in both ourselves and the universe at large, is much broader and long-term than that. To say that I have faith, to me, means that I believe that the universe has a particular path that must unfold (whether you believe that is up to your own actions, or because of a higher design is up to you) in the long term. It isn’t specific, per se, but it contains a feeling and a direction. I have faith that my path is clearly laid out before me, and that if I keep walking along it, good things will happen – one missed modelling call isn’t going to ruin me.

As my friend and I say at the gym: “if it hurts, it probably means you’re doing it right.” Certainly not in all cases will this hold true, but I find as a general rule, if you are to find yourself challenged and taken down a peg by something you do, you should probably get up and try it again.

Challenge accepted.

Journal Excerpt, September, 2011

I find one of the things I struggle with most when looking for a relationship is deciding between something substantial, as opposed to just reaching for whatever is easiest.

In many ways, I think relationships bear a striking resemblance to food, in that they both nourish a fundamental need and that they come in a variety of shapes, sizes, textures, flavours, and so on.  Some of these things can begin something powerful – they’re something you’ll always come back to. Other times they’re nothing more than a snack that will keep you going (or stop you altogether).

Being the human that I am, I sometimes make the decision to reach for whatever is closest, or ready made, rather than continue looking for something substantial. Sometimes I try new things I think I’ll really like and find them totally unpalatable – for whatever reason. In the end, I am intrepid. I carry on.

More than just carrying on, though, I find myself still reaching for new things. Sometimes I find something I will keep coming back to for years to come, others I get violently ill and swear off it altogether. But no matter how low things look – even if I find myself curled up in pain from whatever it is I’ve ingested - always I try again.

Why? Well, it’s simple: I have to. I need relationships just like I need food. They nourish me, make me able to carry on through the good times and the bad.

Even though sometimes I get seduced to try something quick and easy -something that will nourish me for a minute. And even though I try things that look delicious, but turn out to not agree with me, always I come back. I search, I stumble, I search again.

Because unlike food, while relationships help me survive life, more than that, they also make it worth living.

Eat to live, don’t live to eat; but always live to love.

Logs, Grapes, and Wrath

I had this moment today where I decided I was going to cut wood. I’d had a rough day with some bad news and I felt as though there was no better place for me to deal with my feelings than to stand in the boiling hot sun and chop some wood. Manual labour always makes me feel better.

Perhaps it’s not by coincidence that I’ve recently started reading John Steinbeck’s immortal Grapes of Wrath. It’s a beautiful novel and I’m thoroughly enjoying it so far. But I’ve been particularly drawn to the gritty, masterfully detailed depictions of the Great Depression and more generally, of hardship, that Steinbeck weaves so easily.

I decided to chop wood rather on a whim. I had just come home from work and was still feeling quite morose at my day. Work had been very slow, I’d received less than wonderful financial news that morning, and I was not very much in the mood for either. Suddenly, as my keys turn in the door, an idea strikes me: manual labour in the sunshine. Despite my outward gloom, inwardly I smiled.

So, I changed into something appropriate, assembled my tools by the stump we chop on, and went to select a nice piece of wood upon which I would work. One stood out to me: it was smaller than the rest, just about the size of my torso, with several amputated nubs standing idly on the outside of it. I didn’t know it then, but I had selected a herculean task for myself.

I took it in both hands and prepared to move it. My knees stiffened, my back jerked, and I grunted as I lifted it up. I pressed it against my body, getting sap all over myself, and proceeded to carry it to the area where I would break it down into its more useful components.

My first swing of the axe went in smoothly and connected right with the middle of this stump upon a stump. Satisfied, I went to remove the axe head from the centre. I met resistance immediately. Awkwardly, I fought with the head for a moment and then removed it from its woody prison.

I grunted.

Positioning the axe carefully, I took another swing – harder this time. It connected better than the last and dug into the centre quite handily. I grinned and prepared to remove it against. This time the resistance was even harder. I kept pushing and pulling until a neighbour peaked over his side of the fence and inquired as to what exactly I was doing. I replied with an awkward smile that I didn’t really think there was a better place for me at that moment. He chuckled and went about his business.

I gave up trying to remove the axe from the stump and instead resorted to whacking at the axe with the next tool in my arsenal: the sledgehammer. I kept hammering away, sweat slowly beginning to drip down my brow and onto my bare chest. With each powerful swing, the axehead became further wrenched into the centre of the this seemingly growing mire. I grunted and swore and continued my to vent my increasing frustration on this incorrigible piece of wood.

Without being generous, I’d say it took me a good fifteen minutes to finally break this (the smallest piece of the pile!) into two pieces. I’d given up any semblance of prowess and resorted simply to pummelling the piece as much as possible. With a gasp of relief, I tore one smaller piece from the other and grinned from ear to ear. It was with a sheepish sigh that I realised that these two pieces were no where near small enough to count as true firewood.

I went back to the garage.

With a little more careful searching, I found another, smaller piece of wood and brought it back. It lasted me all of five minutes. It was a pile of neatly managed kindling before I even knew it.

I look at the other two pieces. I set on the smaller one. I felt accomplished now. I set it down beside the stump I’d be chopping it on, and set my axe in the middle. I positioned my sledge-hammer and just kept smashing away. Within ten minutes, I’d broken it into two pieces. In another few minutes into three, then four. I don’t know if it had simply been weakened by my earlier barrage, or if this time I simply knew what to do, but either way, I made comparatively short work of this piece.

The large piece still sat beside me. I scratched the stubble on my now-moist chin and analysed it. I was afraid it would take me as long as my original attempt, but I swallowed my pride and went right for it. To my surprise, it yielded almost immediately. A satisfying chunk broke off readily, apparently resigned to the fate of my axe. I smiled and continued my work, buoyed by my success. I kept breaking my axe upon it, and soon enough, I was stacking the wood under a tarp and wiping the sweat from my forehead with a satisfied smile on my face.

I couldn’t help but laugh at myself. So sure was I that I could do this task, that I never once stopped to analyse just what I was doing. In retrospect, it should have been clear to me that the knotted, wet wood would be extremely difficult to chop, but not for one second did I consider that until I was well into the project. Then, just as I was about to give up, I found myself winning some modicum of success with the log. All it took was the one triumphant moment of the breaking the first piece into two, and then I was ready to try again. Distractions did nothing to satisfy me – I needed to complete my original task. Once I kept working at it, I found myself winning the battles that I ‘d wanted to all along. It wasn’t as easy as I’d originally thought, but I certainly completed it when there was a moment I never thought I would.

Lessons in fortitude and patience, right there. Thanks, life.

Harry Potter, A Goodbye

I first read Harry Potter when I was about nine  years old – mistakenly I stumbled into the Chamber of Secrets and found myself putting the book down after a few chapters. I didn’t like it. I didn’t understand the setting, the characters seemed boring, and the idea of magic on the whole didn’t interest me. There was too much emphasis on the little things, the details of the characters for me, it lacked the epic scale of my other interests, Star Wars for example. That’s always been a flaw of mine. I like extremes. Massive or microscopic, with little room for anything in-between. I probably put off reading the rest of the series for another year after that first encounter. Needless to say, I found my way back eventually.

I came to love it.Most of all I came to love Harry Potter. Someone always labelled special, someone with a destiny – I wished it were me and after I kept reading, I found reasons to believe we were one and the same. Fate is very much a part of Harry’s life, always it interrupts him and always he’s forced to respond; characteristically with honesty and humility.

Always a hurt man in some ways, I was drawn to his inner conflict, this sense that his scars, both physical and emotional, were a reflection of my own, broken inner workings. He was never quite attuned to everyone else’s thinking, with a tendency to see himself as an outcast. I related and found myself swept up in his quest for absolution from a past that he had no control over, as I imagined myself possessing some similarly blighted history.

Harry can be a bit of a loner and it’s no surprise: his experiences can only make him as such. But he’s lucky enough to have so many people who love him that are always there to bring him out of his self-imposed exiles. His struggle resonated with me and helped me find the way out – he helped me understand just how important it is to have people who can drag you out of your own head. More than that, he showed me just how important it is to make peace with yourself – even the parts you don’t fully understand.

Harry taught me a lot of things. We loved and learned together over the years. He helped bring my family together, too. We loved him for all he did for us and the adventures we were all able to share together.

When I speak of Harry and what he means to me, I naturally speak of a fictional character. He will never know me and all the parts I have felt he does, were parts of me that I saw in him, never the other way around. A literary character, more than anything, but also one who graced the silver screen more than a few times. For those times, I have also a Mr Radcliffe to thank, too.

Today, for the last time, I saw him, along with Mr Grint and Ms Watson, on that big screen as the plucky, irremovable trio. As much as I had come to enjoy their adventures, which in so many ways were their own adventures, not just the characters that they portrayed, I am now happy to see them at their conclusion. These young people, with so much ahead of them, will now go on to do their own great things and live their own great lives, apart from these characters that they have let inhabit them for so long. I know I speak against the wishes of many people when I say this, but it is my hope that this is the last time we see all of them on the silver screen again as this trio. The reason? Well, when the curtain falls, some months from now, on the last screen, in the last theatre where this film is to be shown, a cultural moment will be over. To attempt to reach for it longingly and therefore produce something that searches after it would be as foolhardy to me as trying to use that most Deathly of Hallows, the Resurrection Stone. There is no joy to be had in ghosts – keep your memories instead.

From all of the fanfare around the world that that this movie has received, one is readily taken in by the size and power that this series has, and the ability of all of that to move people in a profound way. The French have a phrase, fin de siècle, which translates as ‘end of the century’, but of which the emotional impact is more difficult to impart. Essentially, it is a historical term which relates to the end of the 19th Century, whereupon many Europeans understood that the end of the century also related to the end of a distinct period in their society, more than just the changing of a calendars. It simultaneously reflected a belief in the great splendour of that particular age, along with both a worry and a hope for what this new period would bring. In this same way, I feel that many people are left to wonder what the end of this cultural moment means for us.

With the close of this final film the epoch of Harry Potter comes to a close. As the curtain closes, the ability of us to describe it as something current ends. This does nothing to reduce the power it has, far from it, in fact – I predict that Harry Potter and his adventures will go on to be more popular than ever, but they will exist in a different way than they have until now.

They will become a part of the cultural fabric of our society, more than they have already; something that we draw upon as a source of inspiration, romance, or adventure. Sometimes with nostalgia, sometimes with the bright sense of something experienced for the first time – but never again will they be something that we wait for, at least, not for me. They’re a part of us, Harry is a part of us; a part of me.

No longer will we wait to find out what happens next (and I hope Mrs Rowling does not give in to our many pleas and try and tell us what happens next – let’s leave that to the imagination of the fans). We will have to go forward with our lives and think back to Harry and everything he taught us, not the other way around.

So, thanks, old chum. I know we didn’t start off on the greatest footing, but I really came to think of you as a dear friend, someone who understood me, and an inspiration. You taught me to embrace the whole of myself, even the parts that seemed strange to others and taught me to be brave when no one else would.

Thanks, Harry.

Epiphanies and Other Little Things

You know what’s funny?

Life.

You know what’s also funny?

When you think you want one thing, when in reality, you need another.

It’s amazing. One of the true human stories that you’ll hear again and again. We want something, sometimes desperately, but in the end it turns out you really had to have something else. Often we see this in love: we invest all of our time in chasing one person, when in fact it is someone else who truly loves us. It feels like a fundamental part of the human condition that we are sometimes misguided in our desires. We’re taken in by advertising, by the sun in our eyes, by unsound advice, by charlatans, even!

We get taken in by all of these things and then pour our energy into pursuing whatever it is we want in the best way that we can. When that fails us, we simply pine for it with a fury that is often beyond the reckoning of even the most reasoned arguments.

The point is that when we get our hearts and minds focused on something, we, or at least I, tend to focus on it. When we believe we need something that it will fulfil some necessary part of ourselves – completing us, even if just for a moment – well, we tend to move after that pretty strongly.

Sometimes we tear whole lives apart just looking for that thing that we want. We tell ourselves that we can’t live without it, and so we push everything else out of the way in search of it.

But the funny thing is that such things aren’t always true, are they?

More often then not, we realise that what we thought we needed, we actually have no (positive) use for. Sometimes these moments are funny – like when you dump out your bag to find a pen, only to realise the pencil in your hand would have done just fine – and other times they’re not. But that “ah ha” moment comes either way, doesn’t it?

When it does, whew, don’t you feel silly? Don’t you just lose yourself for a moment in this mixture of personal disgust, embarrassed relief, and a somewhat maligned accomplishment? I know I do. It varies on the situation, sometimes it’s more disgust, and sometimes it’s only laughter, but in the end, that moment of realisation really is a powerful one.

It’s powerful because it says something about the human character that I think we’re all prone to forgetting: the answers to all our questions are usually right in front of us, but we often don’t see them. They stare me in the face so often I could turn blue if I tried to recount them. But there it is. Everything we need exists, somewhere, but not always where we think.  Moral of the story: don’t fall into the trap that I have often done, where you believe so completely that something is what you need, without stopping to analyse the broader picture. It’s amazing what you find!

Just One of Those Things

There’s a story I don’t often tell. It involves a bar. A tiny little hole in the wall. Not worth remarking upon for any other reason than where it sits. This little bar in particular sits right beneath the Empire State Building. The tall, silver, almost-temple like structure casts a long shadow across the face of this unimposing little tavern.

The reason I bring it up is that I was reminded of it today. I happened to be working in a little tavern not unlike it today. Standing there, very slowly cleaning the glasses on the rack; imagining myself as the quiet bartender in some black and white movie. The only difference here, and one that makes it all the more film-worthy, is that there was a jazz singer here. A pretty little thing in a plain black dress, with a two-piece ensemble to accompany her. They were lovely. They played the simple, sad songs of the greats, while the onlookers simply basked in a moment of perfect simplicity. All was right in our little corner of the universe. All I had to do was clean that glass and watch.

It reminded me, though, of that little tavern. That little place where no-one but me and another pair of wounded, curious, longing eyes sat. It was quieter there than where I was today, but not by much. The mood in both places was subdued. An air of morbid curiosity hung in the air; one because of a small audience, the other because of an establish history mired by a chasm of inexperience.

We talked, but it was hushed. For some reason, we expected that our conversation might disturb the other, non-existent patrons of the establishment. We were also dreadfully nervous. The kind of nervousness that comes when you know someone almost as well as you know yourself, but haven’t seen them in a long time and don’t really know if they’re as you remember them. That sort of nervousness.

The walls were a thick red-brick. They felt old. The tables were a thickly varnished wood, almost black the varnish was so thick. There were TV’s playing some football game on there. I remember wondering if those players, likely thousands of kilometres away, knew that they were helping to provide awkward dinner-time conversation for two once star-crossed lovers. Multimillionaires attempting to assuage such complicated problems, far outside their expertise. They probably didn’t think about it.

The food was good. I had some sort of seafood, but oddly enough I don’t remember what. Those other eyes, those deep, piercing eyes had a salad. It was small. Nervousness, again.

We talked and talked. Well, I talked and talked. Listening. Nodding. A tentative smile. Wiping of the napkin on the mouth, a few more idle minutes of chatter, and then the scrapping sound of chairs on cement. A few short minutes after that, that small hole in the wall would be nothing more than the memory it is now.

It’s funny how those moments stand out to you with such clarity. The sights, the smells. They stick with you over time, even though other details fade away. The conversations are gone; the words exchanged with careful precision now dust in the mind. But the feeling. The feeling remains. That feeling remains despite the fact that there is nothing else for it to subsist on. Those eyes no longer look at me with longing, nor I them. The quiet, subdued goodbye to that hole-in-the-wall would very much be echoed soon after. But still the feeling remains.

It’s funny, even though it was never present, I’ll always remember that scene with the simple sounds of “just one of those things” playing in the background. A welcome addition.

Just one of those things

My Eyes See Through Your Eyes Which See Through Their Eyes Which See Through Our Eyes

There are these moments when you realise that the ugly parts of yourself are far more prominent than you’d like. Despite the horror that they present for those first few moments, I’d like to just go on the record and say that these moments, the ones where you come to realise that you’re not as perfect as you might like to be, are ultimately productive ones.

If we’re all honest with ourselves, we all know that we have them. In many ways they’re not as frequent as they should be, but they do happen. They usually entail some embarrassing circumstance where some long-held truth about yourself or others is disproven in spectacular fashion. Now, when I say spectacular, I don’t necessarily mean that the entire world is made aware of whatever your failing might be, but rather that the magnitude with which this event shakes your understanding is beyond any and all expectations, and possibly even understanding.

You get blind-sided. You get chewed up and spit out by someone or something that really confounds the previous take on the world, or whatever it was, that you had.

Despite the probably somewhat brutal tone I may seem to have here, I honestly and truly believe this to be a good thing. Breaking down boundaries is beautiful. Teaching yourself to see the world in a different way is something that needs to be done. Understanding that the world is constantly changing and that the perceptions we have of it need to change too. Finding a single lens with which to view the world is not only impractical, it’s dangerous. A person who decides that the world only operates in the ways of X, Y, and Z is one that will only ever see things that relate to X, Y, and Z. But what about A, B, and C? What about F, for that matter? Or H?

The world is made up of more perspectives than we can ever account for. It’s made up of more things than we can ever account for. The standard story is never good enough. It’s a work in progress. Perfection is never achievable, but it’s always something to strive for. We don’t get to define the world in its entirety, but rather we get to add our own distinctive piece to it. Rather than trying to imagine the world as a blank canvas that you’re going to remake in your image, instead try and imagine the world as a mural, one with more details and contributions than you can ever count or take stock of; while this mural is full beyond reckoning, it always has another free space for you to make a contribution. That’s the beauty of the whole thing.

And so with the beautiful circularity that the world always seems to offer, I have come to realise that as much as the world is a mural with which we are always offering new contributions to, so, too, are we cut in the same mould. We’re never a finished product – to be finished is to die – but rather we are, or at least should be, projects always ready for new ideas and new directions.

The other day I had a view of the world challenged by someone. Admittedly I never took the time to get to know them as I should have. I made judgements about them based on this self-assured collection of so-called knowledge that I have accumulated over time. I let my predispositions determine my disposition towards someone who was quite different than I would have expected.

Needless to say, upon discovering this, I was rather embarrassed – a moment that was really mine and mine alone to understand, but still. I really was shaken by a moment of realisation that my preconceptions, my perception of this little slice of the world, were false. It was earth-shattering. My own self-image took a punch to the jugular. This was not a fatal wound by any means, but rather a wake-up call: things are never quite what they seem.

Let’s make a pact, you and me, right here, right now: we’ll always try and see the world through different eyes. We’ll always do our best to acknowledge that, despite how great we may think we are, we’re not. We’ll always strive to do our best, knowing full-well that we’ll fail most of the time. We’ll always be ready to add just another little mark to that mural, no matter how big or how small, and in turn, always be ready to let someone else leave a mark on us.

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